After the First Orgasm with Another Man. Part 2 There’s one ..

After the First Orgasm with Another Man. Part 2

There’s one more thing I’d like to explain. It might not be very pleasant for potential lovers to hear.

I described my emotions and feelings for Sasha so vividly because, in the moment of arousal, I was truly experiencing them. It’s hard to stay indifferent during sex. You’re being filled by another person, and the hormones take over. Nature designed it this way — once the desire to give someone sex arises, during the act itself, you’re going to feel the man, and want to surrender to him. You might even end up doing “forbidden” things (like rimming Sasha). But that wasn’t because I adore him with every fiber of my being — it was because I needed that experience for me, for the emotions. I imagined how my husband would react, and that made me want it even more.

On top of that, like any other woman, I absolutely love watching a man lose his mind from what I do to him. It shoots my self-esteem through the roof.

But the most important part is what happens after sex. I often get messages like, “Aren’t you afraid you might fall in love with Sasha? You seemed to feel so much for him.” My answer is simple: No.

I love my husband. Everything I do — I do for myself and for him. Sasha, like any other man who has been or will be with me, is just a means to an end. The goal is for me to enjoy myself, and to fulfill my husband’s desires. The lover is in last place, honestly. If something didn’t work for him, I don’t really worry about it.

Among other couples in the lifestyle, we sometimes heard the term “teabag” used for a lover — you use it and throw it away. I personally don’t support that term. It’s disrespectful, even though some people do treat their lovers exactly like that.

In our experience, there have been times when a guy would lose his erection the moment I asked to film for my husband. So I’d have to tell my husband that we couldn’t record for now. And if he was okay with it, I would just focus on the lover — without distracting him with filming or updates. Later, I would describe everything to my husband in detail. Everyone’s happy. He values my honesty and the fact that I never fake anything. He knows I’ll never do something I don’t enjoy. Those who are in the lifestyle might understand exactly what I mean.

As for what happened next with Sasha — we never met again. For various reasons. Sometimes he wasn’t available, sometimes we weren’t. Living in different cities is a challenge. The first time, we made it work because there was so much curiosity. But after I tried him, my curiosity faded. Yes, the sex was good, but he didn’t interest me as a person. So I didn’t see him as a potential regular lover.

We still exchange a few messages every month. Maybe we’ll meet again someday — but for now, there are no plans.