🍥PLEASE READ🍥 i know i already said in my last post that im ..

🍥PLEASE READ🍥 i know i already said in my last post that im going through some stuff right now and i am so grateful for everyone understanding and not pressuring me to do anything when i am unable but i am still so paranoid and worried that it seems like im just slacking or being lazy. i guess i just wanted to say again that i promise im trying my best right now and i genuinely would only be this affected if it was something super serious, which it is. i am not able to publicly or even privately tell people what i am going through right now but i seriously wish i could just so that everyone could understand the severity and seriousness of it and be reassured that its legit stuff and not just a creative issue or something less..'important' ?? i know none of you have pressured me or personally made me feel guilty for not getting out content every few days like i had originally hoped i would, from what im aware no one had even noticed that it was getting slightly less frequent until i mentioned it. but its just the way my brain works and my (actual diagnosed) paranoia disorder works telling me that i should feel guilty and like a failure even though i have legitimate reasons _(:з」∠)_ the timing between what im going through and first launching my OF has been rough, i didn't think creating and uploading would get this badly affected by my situations but it has and i am so fucking sorry for that. but i promise i am not quitting or anything in case you worry that my next post will be a goodbye or something 😹 this is my dream and i am going to do it no matter how difficult, infrequent or inconsistent it is and i hope that you support that. i understand if its not enough for you and i apologise for that, i hope you find something else to spend your money on that's more worthwhile. i know this is just rambling and vague and annoying because i can't say what im going through and you're probs hella curious but i guess what im trying to get at is essentially - if you knew what i was dealing with you'd wonder how im still alive let alone still able to do this. i really hope i don't seem like im lazy or a scam or anything and im not fishing for compliments or support etc, genuinely, i just wanted to explain myself and make sure y'all believe me idk..you deserve as much of an explanation as im able to give and also my disorders are convincing me that i need to validate and explain myself even tho no one asked or disbelieved me 😹😭😹😭 SORRY FOR TYPING SO FUCKING MUCH OHMYGOD OF YOU READ ALL OF THIS THEN THANKYOU WOW, IF YOU DIDNT THEN..I DONT BLAME U, ENJOY UR WANK, THANKS FOR SUPPORTING ME IT LEGIT MEANS MORE THAN THE WORLD TO ME I CANT EXPRESS IT ENOUGH💗 (also sorry if this pic has already been uploaded, i can't remember if it has or not but i doubt anyone will be petty enough to complain either way ¯\_(ツ)_/¯)